I forgot to post anything in January... or perhaps I was too busy?
I think it was the busy-thing.
School grinds on, and I am currently directly in the center of preparing my college application materials for submission by March 1st (though I am aiming to have them completed by February 23rd - not much time now!).
This is pretty stressful, but at this point I just want to get these applications out there and find out which of these schools wants to accept me, give me money, etc.
There's a lot riding on these applications - whether I'll remain in this area, for one, in my job and house and all of that stuff. Part of me, the dreamer part, hopes that I'll be on my way to a different area really really soon, but the "adult" part that thinks about things like checking accounts and buying nutritious food, etc., says "the economy is bad, your job is decent, there are schools around here that will probably give you a full/almost full scholarship" and I'm concerned that the voice I listen to here is going to be the one I'm stuck living with from here on out... but, I mean, that's not realistic.
I've had a difficult time buckling down to write, except for some pretty pained/passionate sessions over a bizarre soft sci-fi piece I was working on for a while. I've been reverting to my other forms of expression and inspiration that help me when I'm in one of these slumps - playing my guitar and whistle, listening to albums I like, watching soccer games, things like that, transcribing stuff I wrote a while back into Scrivener. I'll clear this funk soon. There's a lot I want to get done at the moment and it'll brim over eventually.
Short post, sorry. Have a bunch of stuff to do today.
